After a long night at work I returned home to discover a surprise in my inbox:
“Congratulations! We are excited to inform you that your application has been reviewed and you can start studying at UoPeople in the upcoming term!”
I sat and stared at that email for an hour. I was accepted? Just like that?
They’re joking, right?
I logged into the website. It was real. While they were still processing the paperwork I’d submitted to prove that I was fluent in the English language, I had been accepted to study at their University.
I thought I would be excited. I thought I would shout my happiness to the entire world.
But I wasn’t.
I was terrified.
What in the world do you think you’re doing? My demons raged. You just committed two to four years of your life to
Doubt = Fear
Every single doubt that we have is simply fear coming to the surface. Every single doubt comes from the negative words people have said to us in the past.
“You’re great at starting stuff but you never follow through; if it wasn’t for me you’d starve.”
“It’s a shame that
“You might have book sense but you don’t have a bit of common sense.”
“I don’t know why you even bother; it’s impossible to get rich so you might as well enjoy what you’ve got right now!”
“You need to stop working so hard and get a good man to take care of you.”
The words may be different but the damage is the same. You internalize those doubts and every time you discover an opportunity to better yourself they come back to haunt you. They force you to question yourself just long enough for the opportunity to pass and you end up wishing that you’d made the leap too late.
How to Conquer the Demon of Doubt
While you may not be able to silence the demons completely there is something you can do to minimize their trauma.
All you have to do is analyze their objections one by one.
Two thousand dollars may net me $200 a year in passive income but a degree can help me acquire a job that pays considerably more than I can earn right now. Jobs that require an Associate’s Degree start at around $24,000 a year in this area. That is 150% more than
Two thousand dollars would allow me to escape the drudgery of manual labor. Considering how badly my shoulder aches after a busy day scanning at the register, how my feet sometimes swell painfully after my shifts, and the varicose veins that are starting to form on one leg, my body needs that reprieve. It may even allow me to extend my working years even further. Many of my compatriots aren’t physically able to continue doing manual labor into their 70s. Considering how hard I’ve used my body, there is a good chance I won’t be able to either. Because of this, if I don’t spend $2,000 now, the odds are high that another injury will doom me to spending the rest of my life begging for Disability payments.
I have no desire to spend my sunset years in poverty.
I’ve become so adept at managing my time that I know I am capable of handling a single class. I may have less time to blog. I may have less time to work on my book. I may have less time to hang out with friends and chat but I am confident that I can carve out the time for a single class.
As for the reasons I failed in the past no longer apply. I no longer have to choose between my family and myself. I’ve enough income that I can afford to take a class or two a semester if I pare down my investments a bit. I’m even due for another review over the next month so my income may even go up a bit.
As for the length of
What reasons do you use to knock the demon of doubt away in your life? Please share your stories in the comments below.