The simple act of saying “stop” has benefited me immensely. For the first time in months, I felt an internal peace that speaks volumes in the silence. The frantic chatter in my mind has ceased now that I have given myself permission to just wait.
As I mulled over the changes in myself over the years the shock slowly eased. I see no point in criticizing the decisions I made in the past. I simply need to accept them, adjust my course, and move on.
The force of habit caused my mind to turn to my goal of financial independence. I’ve had goals for so long that it is hard to let them go. Just the simple goal of survival has been so much a part of me over these past decades that I feel a bit lost now that I’ve pressed pause, and that’s okay. There is a danger in moving too soon. I know that now but I am also aware of the fact that I need something to focus on in the meantime while I sort my emotions.
One by one the ideas came. One by one I dismissed them. Each and every idea was a plan, a goal–and goals are something I need to avoid for the time being.
It was only when I reached the point when I had to order myself to stop thinking about it that I finally worked things out. Instead of focusing on what I can do, why not focus on who I want to be?
No plans, no goals, no grand schemes. No major changes. Just close my eyes, envision who I want to become in the future, and start making tiny steps in that direction.
Have you ever allowed yourself to focus on the person you want to become? Please share your stories in the comments below.