When I first started blogging, writing was a joy. I couldn’t wait to sit down at my computer and empty my soul. I loved curling up with a good book, absorbing the knowledge, and distilling it into something that would benefit my readers.
Now I cringe at the thought of reading my email, much less writing anything.
I almost shut this website down, erased it. I thought that my lack of desire was due to the fact that this had ran its course.
Now I’ve realized that there’s nothing wrong with this website. I’m just burned out.
I began writing professionally back in the mid-aughts at some website whose name I’ve long forgotten. I told myself I would write as much as it took to achieve financial freedom so I could stay home with my baby girl, and I did.
For years I would wake up, terrified that we wouldn’t have enough to make ends meet. To ease that fear, I’d publish another article.
I did this for years until my books took off. Even after that I made myself sit down and knock out blog posts and work on books on an almost daily basis.
It wasn’t until recently that I realized how much of a toll that decision has taken. I didn’t even realize that this was the reason why I had no desire to read or write this past year.
Now that I know what’s going on, I’m going to step back and relax. I’m not going to force myself to read. I’m not going to force myself to write. I’ll keep this website, however. In time the burnout will fade and writing will be a joy once more.
I suspect this may be why so many bloggers quit after a time. When you force yourself to publish as often as the experts instruct you to publish, writing becomes a chore. Maybe if we wrote less, we’d be happier and our readers would have more time to spend living their own lives instead of reading about ours.
For now I’m going to kick back and relax. It is a beautiful winter’s day. Once I hit publish, I’ll kick back in front of the television and refuse to read so much as a text as a treat for writing this.
Balance is everything. When we allow ourselves to become off-balance, we should all step back and readjust.
What are you burned out about? Are you taking steps to recover? Please share your stories in the comments below.