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Health Personal

Instinctive Fury

Someone posted something as a comment to my cousin’s post-surgery photos.

“Sorry to see these photos. Won’t show Ms. X. Hope the reaction is better.” (Paraphrased and names changed).

My blood boiled.

I have calmed a bit since that first gut reaction.

Like my cousin is so ugly people wouldn’t want to see her…

Grrr.

I love my baby cousin. I admire her guts in fighting this. I don’t appreciate anyone giving a HINT of not supporting her, especially when she is so self-conscious after surgery.

Anyhow, that’s my rant. I’m still furious, but I held my tongue for Dani’s sake. \l

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Health Personal

My cousin looks like a borg…

…now that she has had her surgery. I wish I could post photos but she is a bit embarrassed at her appearance.

They shaved the whole entire side of her head and there is a tube running from the top of her skull behind her ear, down her neck, across her chest and into her abdominal cavity where the excess fluid will drain away. The tube is just under the skin so it is really obvious especially after the surgery. Behind her ear is this circle where a doctor will place a magnetic device that he will use to dial up or down how much pressure is needed to trigger the shunt, and should the issue be resolved, will be used to turn the shunt off.

Already she has had the rest of her long hair trimmed down to about an inch in length, and plans to shave it down to match the rest of her head when the swelling goes down.

This is my baby cousin, guys. She is as close to a blood sister as I really have, her and her siblings. Even though she was always taller than me and bigger than me I was the elder one. I always tried to look out for them when I would go spend summers at her house growing up.

Here in a few days I’m getting my head buzzed out of love and respect for what she is having to go through. If people don’t like it, tough! She is half a country away so I can’t be there physically, but at least I can be there spiritually.

I’m going to try to find some bandannas that represent me to wear during the interim while my scalp adjusts to the extra sunlight. Any ideas? One friend says biker bandannas would reflect my attitude best, and another says Native American ones. I dunno.

I love The Secret, and perhaps that is why I feel kinda strange here lately. I have my younger adopted sister who walks with a cane, my cousin who just had this surgery to have this tube implanted into her skull I gather permanently, and various friends who are diabetic and have a slew of illnesses.

You know what I have? A hormonal imbalance (controlled by birth control pills) and an annoying reaction to milk.

That’s it. Despite all the things that have happened in the past, I’m in the best health of my life at age 39, and here are all my friends and family so ill around me.

I love my health, I love this ability. Still at times I feel guilty because it’s like I’m some sort of superhero who is trying to learn and master their power and who feels great and wonderful yet those around her are ill and you know there’s a solution but you can’t force them to take it, cause no one is ready for it.

When I buzz my head I’ll post pictures here so all of you can have a good laugh. If Dani gets a good laugh out of it then it is worth it!

Sigh. I cried when I saw those pictures of my cousin. I worry about her so! She has already battled cancer and won, and now has to deal with this! As a result, she has left medical school after all of her hard work to excel.

Regardless of what happens, I am SO proud of her! She is fighting. She hasn’t given up. Even posting the pictures she talks about how “cool” it was that the doc would use this one device to control her shunt, and she wouldn’t have to have another surgery as a result.

Cuz, you are one brave chick, and I love you!

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Personal

Going bald for a cause

My cousin has to have a shunt put in her head for high intracranial pressure.

She’s worried about having a shaved head as a result.

This is a cousin whom I spent many a lazy summer vacation with, playing dress up, roaming the hills, watching the tube with.

I’m shaving my head in solidarity with her.

I know it sounds kinda crazy, but I will donate my mop to Locks of Love, and post a few pics of it. What’s a shaved head among friends, right?

Before anyone asks, it was my suggestion, and my decision.

My other cousin, her sister, is thinking of doing it as well.

Hair is just hair to me, but she is my cousin, whom I love very much.

I have about a week/ week and a half before her surgery. She has a couple of pre-op appointments to go to first.

Place her in your prayers, my friends. Please. semi

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Personal

Feeling better

After spending the last few days in pain from allergies, I buttoned up the house and turned on the air conditioner. As a result I feel better than I have in weeks! Unfortunately, my wallet won’t be as happy, but sucking down decongestants and eating pain pills is getting nothing accomplished!

Sold another piece of furniture today, will turn it over when we move out…

Other than that, I cranked out a few articles for Associated Content (none I was patient enough to wait for upfront payment), and enjoyed feeling better.

Hope everyone is having a great week!

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Housing Law of Attraction Personal

moving update

We got to look at our new place yesterday. It is in good shape considering it’s age (36 years old) but of course needs a bit of work. First on the list is to get the roof sealed up good, as there is no knowing when it was last done!

My daughter’s bedroom is very small, so will have to be very creative on space usage in there. Both of us have huge closets, however – and her room has a built-in dresser as well. There is an alcove beside my closet where I plan to place my computer desk – a pulled curtain will keep it out of sight when I’m not working.

The carpet in the living room is bright red, so if we keep the couch and loveseat I will definitely have to cover them to coordinate with the floor. Figure I can go with solid black covers. If I cannot find any ready made a couple of solid black sheets will do nicely. Black with red, and solid white curtains – very modern. The walls are paneled, and the paneling is old but will have to do. Thought about painting, but may just clean it well instead.

There is a bar between the living room and kitchen. A couple of stools and we can take our meals there in a casual manner. There are plenty of cabinets and a pantry even, so there is plenty of storage space.

When we start moving in I will take some photographs of the interior. The current resident is still living there and so did not want to be rude and take photos yet.

Got two more little goldfish for our tank. They actually have a lot of black on them. Katie bought them both for a quarter at the pet store. Our first resident seems happier now that it has company.

Need to get some boxes, but fortunately we weren’t really unpacked from moving here! A friend asked if we planned to move again in the future, and I told her yes, when we had enough money for a piece of land. She just laughed.

I am just thankful that this came true. I had placed the request for a two bedroom mobile home on the vision board, and like everything else I place there it arrived. I love my vision board! Who would have thought that the mobile home would have sought us out? Waiting for my next request now!

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Housing Personal

A New Home

Today it became official: I now own a mobile home.

Totally.

Lock, stock, and barrel.

It still doesn’t feel real.

Someone is living there illegally, so I started procedures to evict them today. Once they are out, we can move into our new (to us) home!

My daughter is sad to be leaving her friends, but I am excited to be moving closer to more jobs, to be moving into our own home instead of a rental.

I am still pinching myself. This single mother is now a homeowner.

Wow! 

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Finances Housing Personal

Fish and things

So far, the shock of losing my job has worn off and life has continued as usual. School is out and talk about the layoffs are dying down.  My sympathies to the other 50 billing agents who were laid off as well.

Fortunately I have been in tougher spots so I know I will survive this one.  Already plans are in motion to decrease my housing expenses even more than I already have.  It just takes time, however.

The little goldfish seemed uncomfortable even with water changes, so today we invested in a filtration unit.  I do not enjoy having the extra electrical outlay, but I won’t have the little critter suffer.  We got one of the filters with the biological filter, which means that there is a living thing helping to filter the water besides the mechanical filtration.  Already little Smudge seems happier.  Perhaps the water wasn’t being agitated enough.  We also got some Aponogeton bulbs and placed in the tank, to provide a more natural environment.  The one plant already in there seems to be doing well, so am hoping for more to grow.

A friend of mine gave me an Eiro energy drink to try, so I drank one today.  They don’t taste as sickeningly sweet as other energy drinks I have tried, and is chock full of healthy ingredients.  You don’t get that sugar buzz, and so far I seem to be a lot less lazy as I have been!  If you are interested in trying a great healthy energy drink, email patwinn7 (at) hotmail dot com and tell her you heard about it from the Computer Lady.  

Also at the store they had a new supply of kerosene lanterns on sale for four dollars each.  Considering how handy they were when we had the bad ice storm I grabbed one before the price goes up.  It is the old fashioned lantern style with the metal base and the bail handle.  I like the glass ones but they are not designed to be portable, and these can be used like flashlights or whatever outside in a safe manner.  During the ice storm we used the two we already have to go between rooms, had one hanging in the bathroom on low, just used them for everything.  In this current world condition one cannot be too prepared, so I grabbed this one to be safe.

I am hoping to locate a portable propane stove and oven to start using.  We have an electric stove here, which is okay but worry about power outages.  Also gas heat will heat water a lot faster and more economical than electric ever can!

We already have a kerosene heater, but plan to invest in another small one.  If we end up moving into a small mobile home, during really cold days a heater on each end of the place should keep it toasty without the super hot spots that one large heater gives off.

When I was a child my father had a small wood stove in our mobile home; while it was warm in the living room, at night ice would form on the walls of my back bedroom.  I had a small electric heater but I hated using that much electric, you know?

The place I’m looking at has an electric furnace, but I personally detest furnaces because they are noisy and expensive to run.  Also during a power outage you are stuck. Much better to start off with an electric-free alternative!

The mini garden outside (actually a repurposed flower bed) is doing well.  The tomato plant is growing at an insane rate, but the two green pepper plants seem to be lagging behind.  I am keeping them dusted after making a shaker for Sevin dust.   Also waiting to see how the peas do this year.. will have them climbing up the sunflowers as an experiment in living trellis.

I would love to come up with an idea for a gypsy-type garden, meaning a small portable garden for frequent movers.  I hate the thought of building up land when I may move in a year or so!  Perhaps one of those gardens that are made with the kiddie pools?

Time to get on with the housework.  The laundry may wait, but my wardrobe will not!

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Personal Writing

Another day another dollar

Today was a good holiday.  Worked for several hours, posted some articles, including a piece of fiction, so I feel as if it were a productive day.

Returned the plastic container to my neighbor and thanked her for the wonderful food it contained, and watched the last part of Extreme Home Makeover at her home.

We treated ourselves to some ice cream, my daughter got us a small bag of chips, and we watched a movie on Hulu.  Life is good.

Trying to think of ways to reduce our expenses and increase our freedom.  Haven’t any answers yet, however. When you have a child things are always more complicated. You have to allow space for them to play and grow, but I wouldn’t trade her for the world.

The challenge of seeing things and not purchasing them is a challenge.  We are so trained to buy buy buy that it is really disgusting. Even as a child my father thought it best to buy instead of make when he had the money to do it, and he was raised during the first Great Depression!

But everything that we do not buy is a victory and brings us closer to the freedom that we crave.  I do wonder if I will ever see this precious freedom however.